Damn it! I don't know how to express what I'd like to say Noel - I'm so terribly sorry! I've been down a similar road before, but everyone's road is different despite the similarities... I feel for you about your kids too, I can only imagine the heartrending pain of that for them and for you.

As hollow as it sounds, if there is anything I can do or if you need to vent then please call or email. Hang in there... If you have a journal then use this time to fill the pages, it seemed to help me and I wrote like never before.

Daniel